Vague, but Ready, Set, Go!

I delved deep.  For a couple of days.  And that got me farther than I have been in 10 years.

10 years ago I saw myself as pure intentioned, desirous of things unseen, making the most of every opportunity, joyful.  Obviously not perfect, much younger, and not a whole lot of life lessons going on.  So there's that.  So, coming into this better mindset is kind of greater than 10 years ago.  A bit more wisdom and "I get it" mentality. 

Let's just say that the last post I wrote inspired by the reset challenge has taken me to a clearer mind, a pure place, a motivated path.  I am not sure how I want to explain this, so I might not.  Some matters need to be privately held and cherished.

I will say that my dis, dis, discipline has not held strong in all the aspects I had envisioned.  I did not remain true to all of my goals.  But I found a foundation to build from which, I think, will result in even better discipline as I walk along.

Tick, tock.

Sticking to my guns.  Holding hands with myself.  Holding hands with God.

Boom, boom!

Dis, Dis, Discipline

I am doin well. Day 5.  What, whaaaat?  This is what I'm talkin bout.

The Button Bird 30 Day Reset

Let me backtrack without being mega wordy I hope.

I have mostly sucked in the area of self discipline.  My whole life.  I have gone through some pretty great phases.  And when I think of phase I think of discipline done well in one area of my life for a period of time.  

As I have gotten older, I have gotten better. Right before becoming pregnant, I went back to school.  A university in fact.  And I made the dean's list both semesters that I attended.  This was quite amazing to me. The work I put into each class.  How proud I was of myself. I had never been the study/straight A type in high school. I applied myself and learned and created this time.  One of the best years of my life.

 The pregnancy kind of put a kink in graduating. 

Most recently I joined a gym, paid a bit for a personal trainer, ate super healthy, and lost the baby weight.

I started in February and had been working hard up until a couple of weeks ago.  Busy art classes and being tired led to my muscle sculpting demise.  And ice cream depression set in.  Bleck.

Spiritually, well hum bug.  The most up and down place in my life.  Even so, I still hold my personal faith in the highest regard.  And when I am on, I am most content and excited about life.  This is where I want to be most disciplined.  From this is where I think all else flows.

So, when I drank a huge glass of water.  I mean, when I took a deeeeeep breath.  Well, I mean when I read about the reset challenge, I was refreshed.

I have always been a perfectionist, which does not help doing challenges like this.  So I modified it.

I will participate in prayer and meditation every morning for 30 minutes. 

Waking up at 5:15am will be the newest, most challenging discipline these days. 

I will drink 70 ounces of water a day.  I will take a vitamin each morning.  I will eat healthier, repeating what I learned in February.  I will exercise 3-4 times  a week.  I will enjoy 2-3 glasses of vino a week.  And I will read the book Disciplines For The Inner Life.

I am here on day 5.  I am feelin the cleanse.  I think my family is too.  I don't want to say much more.  Get ahead of myself.  That is never good for a perfectionist.  Or a challenge. 

I will let you know in 30 days.  Until then, let the discipline reign!